Episode 61: From Voice Loss to Speaking My Truth

Discovering the throat chakra changed my life.

I suffered with voice problems and loss over a number of years and learning about how the throat chakra might be deficient or excess was an eye opener and gave me insight into ways to balance it. In this episode I aim to share what this looks like and methods for balance.

I remember being in my yoga training in Goa back in 2017, sat on the floor, in the hot humid weather and looking out at the views of the jungle just behind the yoga hall. We had a lecture on the chakras, which were completely new to me at the time. As Karo, our trainer for that session started talking about the throat chakra it absolutely resonated with me. When I discovered the throat chakra, suddenly my eyes were open to a new way of viewing my voice loss and speech problems. These had become physically obvious since 2009, but I can now see these problems date back much further.

If you’re not familiar, the chakras are the main energy centre's located vertically in the body, with the first chakra being the root chakra, located at the base of the spine and the seventh chakra, the crown chakra, located at the crown of the head. However, whether you believe in subtle energy or not the principles of

each one can be applied to our lives and offer a guideline for exploration of inner work too. After all, the inside work is important as it’s through our own internal lenses that we see and perceive the world and this in turn creates our reality.

The throat chakra in particular tells us our rights are ‘to be seen and be heard’, it’s function ultimately links to communication, which helps lead to greater harmony. Ultimately expressing our truth feels liberating in the long-run, but it's not always easy. Previously, I had increasingly found it harder and harder to express how I really felt and to be honest I didn’t even know most of the time myself. As I had numbed my own feeling and emotions often to put others first. This included when my parents parted when I was age 15, I wanted them to be ok and not feel bad, and it wasn’t until 2 years later that I really noticed how I really felt about it, which hit me like a tonne of bricks! By this point it then felt like the moment had already passed and I should be fine now!

Going back to that lecture back in Goa, I strongly related to a deficient throat chakra. This looked like a fear of speaking, speaking with a small, weak voice, and having difficulty putting feelings into words. It can also include being secretive, which I found myself being particularly through a feeling of guilt, fear and shame. It can also look like being overly self-contained bottling things up, or relying mostly on myself. I personally used to always put up walls with those around me, including with my now husband. Interestingly, in contrast an excessive throat chakra can look like too much talking, excessive loudness, stuttering (which I did used to sometimes get) gossiping, which lets face it usually isn’t positive. An excessive throat chakra can also look like a difficulty containing yourself and therefore over sharing with others.

Common physical ailments that link to the throat chakra include a sore throat, neck pain and stiffness, jaw pain, laryngitis and headaches - which I kept experiencing! Other physical ailments include dental and thyroid concerns, which may also be a sign the throat chakra is out of balance. When the throat chakra is balanced we develop clear and concise communication, we speak with a full voice, we know and can share our own truth and we are a good listener. This all helps to bring harmony to ourselves and others.

If you’ve not heard me share before, from 2009 to 2016 I had periods of time where I lost my voice completely, other times I would have a real lump in my throat and felt unable to speak and other times it just felt impossible to say what I wanted to. You might be familiar with the saying that ‘I was choked up’, which helps to highlight the emotional hub that is the throat. I would find it exhausting speaking whether that be in the classroom teaching at a school, out with friends or on the phone. I remember being stood teaching a class reading something out and finding it increasingly more difficult to speak - I really needed more air!

In many areas of my life from a child I can remember I often made myself small and quiet to fit in and not rock the boat, settling for my own discomfort over the discomfort of saying what I really wanted to say. I believed there would be negative consequences for sharing my truth, a limitation I’ve come to realise isn’t often true and that actually communication and self-expression in an honest and respectful way helps to build greater harmony within relationships and also with the inner relationship I have with myself. However, when this isn’t familiar it can feel so scary!

Ultimately expressing our truth feels liberating in the long-run. Think of a time when you have said yes instead of no and put someone else before yourself, chances are it felt tight and restrictive rather than freeing. If you find it hard to say no, I invite you to ask yourself who’s life are you living? Are you living a version of your life that’s built of what you think other people want to hear and want you to do, or a life that is made up of your own choices, experiences, lessons and expansive development. And as I may have mentioned before, what we think others want is based on our own perception of what we think they want. We aren’t mind readers and we definitely aren’t always right!

In order to heal the throat chakra and help to gain balance, we can connect with the colour blue - this might be wearing something blue, buying a blue plant, selecting blue crystals or meditating on the colour blue - I personally enjoy imagining a blue light expanding from my heart space. Blue is a calming colour and one of wisdom and honesty. Other ways to heal the throat chakra include making a conscious effort to drink more water throughout the day, this can help to cleanse the throat in addition to keeping you hydrated! Self expression through open and honest conversations, singing and writing things down can also help to bring the throat chakra into more balance, I really believe this and you can find out more about journaling in my podcast episode #11 OUT of Mind, ON to Paper (Journaling) by clicking here.